It's a Good Day!

Okay, so my idea of posting more often is to wait approximately 3 weeks and then throw something out there.

Today marks the one year anniversary since the day I was given the choice of resigning or being fired. There are still days that I can't believe it, but there are more days when I am happy to be gone. I didn't realize the toll it takes to work with unhappy, toxic people day in and day out. When you get a steady dose of arsenic, it's hard to remember what it feels like to be drug free.

I actually have real fun now - and every conversation doesn't center around that place I used to work. I was out with friends who work there on Saturday, and - with the exception of one person - it was the sole topic of conversation. It's as if that's all there is to their lives. That place. It made me sad - and it also drove home to me how far I've come. There was a time when the topic was endlessly fascinating to me. Now, I'm done with work talk within 30 minutes - and it's a rare day that I want to talk about it that long.

Don't get me wrong. I love my job. I just have learned how to leave it at work. I no longer feel the need to relive the day every time I go home. Instead, I'm learning how to live in the now and how to appreciate the things I have.

Back to what I've been doing. Saturday I had a spa day. It was fun, but it would have been more fun without the 6 hours of work talk. The weekend before I went to a Renaissance Fair. It was too much! I enjoyed the crowds. They were something to see. My favorite part was when my 4-year-old friend got to catch a hawk on her arm. She was so excited!

Happy Tuesday!

Not 22 Anymore

I'll confess. I'm not 22 any more, but for the past week or so, I've acted like it. I've gone to two major concerts within the space of a week, gone out country dancing, stayed up most of the night talking to old college buddies. It's been great. I love being 22!

I also had a great time at a benefit wine tasting. What could be better than raising money for a good cause and drinking wine. YUM!

This week, I'm taking it easy - a couple of night of yoga, a little after work happy hour, a benefit walk, and a birthday celebration for a 4-year-old.

And I'll try to remember to blog more, but then again I might be too busy partying . .

It's Spring, Baby!

And how did we celebrate? With lots of snow, of course. How else do you celebrate spring?

So, this past weekend, M & I made an appearance in a party in K-ville. Let's just leave it at we were so entertaining (and not really because we meant to be) that we now have an open invitation to all parties there. Hmmm.

It's raining today, but that's to be expected with spring. As you can tell if you have read any other posts, I've had a hard winter, but things are better. For one, I've forced myself to exercise like crazy. I've walked, I've zumbaed, I've yogaed. I'm exahusted, but then I'm feeling pretty good.

I talked to the doctor the other day about my love of tanning. She told me that Americans are freakily scared of the sun mostly because of the media. She actually encouraged me to tan for no more than 4 minutes 1 or 2 times a week. She also told me that I needed to get some sun without sunscreen. She said that we are wrecking our bones trying to keep the sun away from us; however, most people are so frightened by the media that they worry more about the risk of sun cancer than anything else. Hmmm.

Parties again this weekend. I hope I get standing invitations. I know I'm rambling, but that's just what I do. Anyway, I do need to head off to work.

Between the Ides and St Pat's

It's the 16th of March? How did that happen? I've actually thought of posting several times, but this is the first time I have gotten around to doing anything. Truthfully, I'm back in a funk so it's not as if I have had anything worth saying to say.

For example, the other day M remarked that you only get a finite amount of springs. So true. I suppose that should make me feel more grateful for the time I have, but it's hard to feel grateful sometimes - especially when you have a hard time thinking of something to be grateful for. Yes, I am sure there's something, but today it's hard.

Here's a true story from my life: today I saw someone I have known for 16+ years who didn't recognize me. She works for someone who used to work for me. Wow, how quickly they forget. It made me a little sad. And that's what I'll focus on for the rest of the day. I'll either cry or want to cry all day. I won't be grateful for the nice new computer monitor, keyboard, and mouse that I got at work today. I won't be happy that my boss invited me to represent the organization at a fundraising dinner this weekend. I won't feel good about the many comments I received about how good I look today. Nope, I'm going to be all upset because some crazy woman didn't recognize me. (I'm not even going to look on the bright side of "maybe I just look that much better.") Nope, I'll wallow in this all day, I'm sure.

Why am I like that? Why can't I be happy with the few (and granted they are very few) good things that happen to me? I don't know. I wish I did - and I wish I knew how to be happy (or at least content) with what I have. I wish I knew how to be grateful. I wish I knew how to enjoy life.

Oh, well, as I think about the fact that I have only so many springs, maybe I'll enjoy this one a little more.

It's March!

Wow! How did March get here so fast? Very soon, 1/4 of 2010 will be done. Have I done all those things I'd intended? Nope. I don't know that I have done any of them. I guess I need to get busy.

I have actually thought of posting several times recently, but I just haven't had anything particularly inspiring - or even all that interesting - to post. Things are good. The sun is out. The weather's warm. The tanning booth is still heaven.

Yesterday I bought some skinny jeans so shopping is even good. There's nothing to complain about. On the other hand, there's nothing to be really, really excited about.

Given the year I just lived through, I'm okay with that.

Maybe I Don't Hate Everything

I managed to make it to the tanning booth. I like that term better because I really prefer the stand up, which is more of a booth than a bed. It is like four minutes in heaven. I can't tell you how it improved my mood! It turned a nothing day around.

Dinner group was great. I loved meeting new people and hanging out with old friends. I'm glad to be involved. We just had the best time. I love it.

Yesterday one of the students brought me some lotion because he said that the lotion I had (a gift) smelled like ass - charming. Anyway, he brought me some mandarin lime energy lotion from Bath and Body. I little dab under the nostrils has awakened me - and given me a bit of energy. I'm loving it!

Did I mention my employer is treating us to our choice of body wraps, massages, or facials today? I'm getting a hot stone massage. I can't wait. Only 4 more hours! HAPPY!

I need to get busy ready the news and surfing the net.

I Hate Everything

Do you know that George Strait song, "I Hate Everything"? That's how I feel today. I'm pissed off at the world, and I hate everything.

I know why. I have not had time to tan in 3 days. I must find time to tan today or it's gonna get UGLY. Okay, it's already UGLY, it's just going to get uglier.

I'm really trying not to hurt or maim someone, but I still have several hours to get through before I can leave.

Of course, I'm not sure my dinner companions tonight will enjoy me. I have a dinner party to attend. It's a dinner club, and the theme is Italian tonight. It's my job to bring an appetizer, and because I have such a great imagination, I'm bringing bruschetta. How creative is that?

Last night I attended a great party. We ate, drank wine, and played with shoes, jewelry and handbags. I managed to snag a great pair of black high heeled sandels -- HOT -- and a new handbag in a lovely lime green. (I was assured that this is the color for the spring.)

Speaking of spring, I CAN'T WAIT. When will it get here? VERY, VERY SOON, I hope. I am tireder of winter this year than I can remember being. Someone asked me recently if this winter were colder than other winters. I can't remember. I try very hard to forget winter. That usually works for me.

That's all for now. I'm going to try to think happy thoughts and make it through the next few hours.