Bridezilla

I got to be a bride today . . . twice. . . I get to do it again tomorrow. It's really sort of fun! It's a project where students design wedding cakes. They have to come to me and ask me questions about my wedding. I then tell them all about my wedding, my likes and dislikes, and then they have to go and try to please me. The best part is that they can't please me . . . at least not at first. I have to continue to be difficult at least a time or two. It's so fun!

I've been so busy this month that I haven't had time to write. I'm just cranking out stuff and playing and having a good time. Okay, I've also managed to read a little - just finished The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. I didn't really expect to like it all that much, but I loved it! It was pretty fantastic.

I'll write more soon . . . seriously.

Is it Friday yet?

No? It's only Wednesday? Really? There's still 2 more days? Yep, I'm ready for the weekend - and this week was only 4 days long!

Looking for the Fun

I've been trying to think of something clever to post, but I've come to realize that's not happening. I used to say that I could turn a trip to the grocery store into a funny story, but more and more these days that doesn't seem to be the way of things. I'm sure the same funny stuff still happens, but I don't guess I notice it so much any more.

Really, I can't think of the last really funny thing that happened other than Winnie & the pillow . . but that's really too long a tale. . . and not all that funny to those who weren't there. Believe me, I've told the story several times, and I tend to get blank looks because without having seen the action, it's just not that funny.

The good news is that I'm off to the family homestead for the holiday weekend. Hopefully, my visit there will enlist a few funny stories. Last summer, my step-mother was all up in arms over having her peas in blue bags. Here's hoping there's more fun on the farm.

It's Raining!

Whoever talked about those April showers had it all wrong. It seems as if it's nothing but June showers. Rain, rain, rain. That's all it seems to do these days. It's funny how I almost like it in the summer while I hate it like mad in the winter.

I sure could use a vacation - and I don't mean one of those head out of town for the weekend gigs. I'm talking 2 or 3 weeks off! Okay, just one week to do nothing would be heavenly!

Well, I have nothing particularly funny or interesting to share so I'll bid adieu.

Forgiveness?

Lately, I've been thinking a great deal about forgiveness. What does it mean to forgive? We are told from the time we are children that we should forgive and forget, but does that seem wise? Is it wise to forget the hurts of the past, or it is better to learn from them?

I have to admit that my natural inclination isn't toward forgiveness unless you count the type of forgiveness Denzel Washington sports in Man on Fire: “Forgiveness is between them and God. It's my job to arrange the meeting.” Of course, that doesn't seem like a wise policy.

This weekend I was at a mini-conference, and the speaker said that forgiveness is "letting go of the hope of a better past." I like that a great deal. I think sometimes holding on to the past causes us more pain than just letting go and moving on. After all, the past is past. There's nothing that can be done to change it. Of course, I have known a few people to re-write it, but I guess that's another story . . .

I also returned to Louise Hay this weekend. She reminded me to send love to those that have cause hurt. She reminded me to awake looking forward to the day. She reminded me that so much of what we think becomes the reality in which we live.

On Saturday, our speaker reminded us that to try leaves the opportunity to fail. Instead, he said that we should do. It's a good reminder because I think we often think about changing, but I think we rarely do the work that is required to change. Instead we say, "I'll try." The time for trying is done. I'm just doing.

As for forgiveness, I think I'm going to continue exploring the idea. I like the idea that "forgiveness is letting go of the past." I think I can manage that. As for sending love to those that "done me wrong," I think I have a long way yet to go . . .

It's a Good Day!

Okay, so my idea of posting more often is to wait approximately 3 weeks and then throw something out there.

Today marks the one year anniversary since the day I was given the choice of resigning or being fired. There are still days that I can't believe it, but there are more days when I am happy to be gone. I didn't realize the toll it takes to work with unhappy, toxic people day in and day out. When you get a steady dose of arsenic, it's hard to remember what it feels like to be drug free.

I actually have real fun now - and every conversation doesn't center around that place I used to work. I was out with friends who work there on Saturday, and - with the exception of one person - it was the sole topic of conversation. It's as if that's all there is to their lives. That place. It made me sad - and it also drove home to me how far I've come. There was a time when the topic was endlessly fascinating to me. Now, I'm done with work talk within 30 minutes - and it's a rare day that I want to talk about it that long.

Don't get me wrong. I love my job. I just have learned how to leave it at work. I no longer feel the need to relive the day every time I go home. Instead, I'm learning how to live in the now and how to appreciate the things I have.

Back to what I've been doing. Saturday I had a spa day. It was fun, but it would have been more fun without the 6 hours of work talk. The weekend before I went to a Renaissance Fair. It was too much! I enjoyed the crowds. They were something to see. My favorite part was when my 4-year-old friend got to catch a hawk on her arm. She was so excited!

Happy Tuesday!

Not 22 Anymore

I'll confess. I'm not 22 any more, but for the past week or so, I've acted like it. I've gone to two major concerts within the space of a week, gone out country dancing, stayed up most of the night talking to old college buddies. It's been great. I love being 22!

I also had a great time at a benefit wine tasting. What could be better than raising money for a good cause and drinking wine. YUM!

This week, I'm taking it easy - a couple of night of yoga, a little after work happy hour, a benefit walk, and a birthday celebration for a 4-year-old.

And I'll try to remember to blog more, but then again I might be too busy partying . .